I am going to Commit Suicide?

No, I think life is hard for you and things can be unfair. You and/or the few friends you have need to focus on things you enjoy maybe travel. And when people praise you believe them try not be negative turn it into a positive even though you do not like the way they are saying it. You have to be positive for people to change around you. Yes you feel like crap but what are you good at.